Life isn't perfect, and so are we. There are things that we do and we regret. There are things that we don't do and still regret. Sometimes, when you get a tiny hope that maybe, since your path has crossed, you maybe are destined to be friends, but just when you're working on it, you suddenly see that everything is not right between you two. I seldom communicate with those I do not know, but when I do, it always brings me pain and sadness and so I told myself I will not settle for that. 4 years after, I do the same mistake. I have been battling over low self esteem for so many years now. Oh, so this is how it feels to admit it. Nakakahiya at nakaka-relieve. I can honestly say that when I scold my brother, or I take something away from him, I do feel a pinch in my heart. Nagsisisi ako that I made my only brother cry. I am far from cold and heartless. It feels so bad having someone think of you as cold and heartless. Oh well, what can you do when God doesn't want one this one for you? You obey. He knows best. But it hurts Jenibele, doesn't it? Matanda ka na pala Jenibele, you are turning 20. It's a pity you think you are ageless. Didn't your last boyfriend called you immature? It may be true, what can you do? Unless someone teaches you the right traits to be a better person.